Well, here it is, now looming large
an age beyond my belief
I had always expected my time here
would actually be quite brief.
Around fifty would be right I thought
who on earth needs more?
With greying hair and shorter breaths
and ready for the heavenly tour.
But fate decreed I'd do quite well
in the lottery of life
and I kept on taking forward strides
breasting challenges and strife.
Good luck and fortune 'dogged' me
throughout those golden years
I enjoyed some love and friendship and
the respect of competing peers.
But alas when you approach the mountain top
the heart is a watching sentry
the clearest views are now behind
and hindsight is 20/20.
Tag: Love
Graduation
Were you watching Nanny? And you, Auntie Phyl? From your lofty residence on some heavenly hill. Did you see our girl get honoured surrounded by all that history? She's on her way now, and will cope with life's unfolding mystery. The fair haired child you loved so much has fought and earned her due the tears in my eyes at her ceremony were also there for you. Proud Father 02/07/02
Gone Away
Oh how we miss those loved ones who have gone. We miss them now, we always will and the memory of them still lives on. Some times it's right for the suffering to leave. Others are forced early into oblivion by mean Gods and we who are left here in confusion can only grieve. Oh how I miss those loved ones who have gone. I miss them now, I always will and the memory of them still lives on.
Thank You Present
I bought you some flowers today, the idea just popped into my head I had just passed by my old house and was glad I lived here instead. I was lonely in that old place and the vomit rose in my chest as I relived the despair for an instant but soon the pain came to rest. For now I live in happy chaos within a surprising peace for surrounded by love and affection I bask in blessed relief. So there you have the reasons why the idea came into play to stop at the very first florist and bring you flowers today.
A Mother and New York
A one parent boy left with his Mum By a Dad who never wanted to go With much financial upheaval Where the standard answer was no! Later he knew that against the odds She had nurtured him with warm feelings Passed on honesty and unease in equal parts As war bombs had left more than cracked ceilings. Twenty years on and the world has changed When enthusiasm means more than a degree With seven day working while still in his teens He started his own firm and was boss free. Life intrudes and the company must go But he has talent others thought worth buying Now shaking important hands at foreign meets He becomes used to first class flying. New York was where he always felt close To his Mother from yester year To look upwards at the churches to wealth And know he had earned his right to be here. To be in this money Mecca And recall from where he had come He knew it was only made happen By the love he had had from his Mum.
Daniel
A little lad I never knew Born to a life of hell This busy fat world just went on And the watchers did not tell. You were starved of love And rifled bins for food Your own mother broke your arm Then silenced you for good. Did no one see the bruises? Or note your half age weight? You were tortured daily but It was noticed when far too late. Oh my heavens how I weep For it always is the same You lived - you died - we never met But I feel I am to blame. Daniel Pelka, died March 2012, aged 4
In Praise of the Brave
To go forward without thinking To rush in where angels fear to tread To face danger without blinking Knowing you may live or perhaps lie dead. To take true love as your benchmark And use it well to define your life Treat all adversity as just a lark And build new dreams from strife Oh the many hopes and dreams Of courageous men and women Who don't falter in life's streams But doggedly keep on swimming. Who for the noble cause of right Subjugate the normal human yearning They bear to stand, cold, in the night And watch their bridges burning.
Being English
Some men are slow to praise their children and unspoken words of love stay trapped in sincere but timid mouths. Is it just an English thing? To pass with affection unexpressed and have its importance grow with its rarity?
Sister Mine
She was always ready to care with Instant love on demand Support for her family always Through thick and thin Especially in her illness - until she finally Rests
Milestones
A birth under bright lights with unsteady steps to come. Large new eyes view new sights while safely held by mum. A deep breath - and into school an old hand by the end of the day. You pay attention or play the fool make friends and you are on the way. A first kiss that glows in your soul with troubled emotions burning. Lifelong loving is now your goal and marriage stems the yearning. Then come child and maybe child and you find a different sort of love. The point of being now reconciled and possibly there is a God above. Now, your lover and brood have gone, alone, you brace your mind to where you were heading all along and when there, what you will find. At each step in life we must be willing to learn what to take, leave, or share. Probably on balance life's been fulfilling and the journey worth the fare? December 2004